New year, same Stephanie

I'm not proving myself to be a very consistent blogger, which I don't really mind so much. My blogging follows suit with my art-making practice and journal writing habit. I'll do it when I'm ready and when I need to (or in the case of journal writing, I'll do it until my mom reads something really embarrassing about me, but in my old age not much embarrasses me anymore). I find ways to be creative and expressive even if it's not a focused effort. Sometimes it's not every day, but I do it enough so that I don't become a stale, pathetic, purposeless human being.

Today I made amazing soup and popovers, which I was very proud of. My culinary creations aren't always this good, but today everything came together as it needed to. Then I tried knitting a scarf and failed miserably. The beauty of my knitting inspiration is that I'll forget about this incident and in another month or two I'll try another, only to fail again. Did it piss me off that I can't make a long skinny series of knots? Sure. Am I going to let that singular failure, or my lax creative discipline, make me go crazy over what I should be doing or how well I should be doing it? Maybe for part of the day, but the short answer is no.

In my last blog post back in November, I said I was going to be doing a major organizational overhaul. That hasn't happened yet and I am ok with it. Perhaps I would be a happier person if I didn't have piles of unfinished business laying around my apartment. I'll blame my angst on physics, for it's physics' fault that 500 square feet of space doesn't camoflage the vast amounts of stuff I have the way a nice big pad would. However, I've lived with piles my whole life, so I'm sure I can make it a few more weeks/months/years in this state (just perhaps not in this apartment).

I, like many, have never really been able to keep a resolution, so for the past several years I've not even given thought to making one. The same goes for this year. I have no major qualms with how I'm living my life. That said, I'm embarking on a new journey for 2010 and it has nothing to do with baby-making. I'll share this big new adventure soon enough, but for now I'm just going to keep on keeping on, enjoying each day as it comes, and getting to be better friends with my inner knitter.